The hair I’d knotted into a tight twist at the back of my head felt heavy as I spun under Gwen’s arm. By this, my fourth attempt, I’d finally sunk into a fluid step that approximated her precise Lindy and was able to dispense with the internal one, two, triple-step; three, four, triple-step litany and just dance. It felt intentional and emphatic and fantastic. Jeff took the next couple songs and twirled me with wide and energetic East coast steps until I threw my head back and laughed out loud. Trying to keep up with Tom was a blast, although I never quite succeeded in following him perfectly – I’d just make something up or sugar in place until he caught my hand again. The night spun out between the bright hardwood floors and my Sperrys, fading the color from our thin clothes and flushing it into our faces. We tumbled out into the streets at midnight, and the rain mingled with the sweat and laughter it found on our skin.
There’s something fantastically fulfilling about dancing, especially when you master the technicalities and can begin to lend something of your own personality to the steps. Gwen and her dance match – she moves deliberately, with grace and precision, executing the steps with a clarity that she imbues with her own strong joy. Tom? No suprise here -he’s a wildcard. He knows dozens of steps and leads me into trios of spins that we have to repeat once, twice, until I finally catch on and can match the motion. He steps with a light, quick looseness, with unconcerned energy and a barely repressed passion for the beat. And me? I’m still learning. I have no idea what I look like when I dance, but my legs feel long and my mouth is always smiling.